Maurette's Adventures

The rollercoaster of a mothers heart has me spinning in circles. I can't watch movies with children anymore, especially those where the child is hurting in any form. I cannot watch sad movies, movies where people are dying, I cannot watch children in general without my heart feeling like it will burst. What a thing! What bothers me the most and also drives me to better myself is the feeling that I leave this world when my daughter is not yet ready for me to leave. Now I realize why people get children young. When you are young, you don't think about your own mortality. Life is an adventure and you roll with it. But at my age, I am grateful for every single day. I see danger in every step. I see missteps, falls, cuts, bruises, soreness, cold, runny nose, fever and sneezes as signs of doom. Nieces ad nephews got colds, quarantine! Chickenpox, quarantine! I just realized .... I am turning into Sheldon from The Big Bang Theory. But seriously, he does have a point, doesn't h...

It was an ordinary morning when I got up to pee on a stick. Billions of women have done it before but for me it was the first time and like many before I was hoping and praying for a negative result. It didn't happen. Minutes after seeing those two lines I was behind the computer looking for ways to terminate. There was no way I was going to have a baby. never wanted one, never planned for one and definitely not in the right place and mindset to have one. Where I was living did not allow for abortions so I spent the next week calling neighboring places.  It is very difficult to describe the thoughts that went through my mind. All I can remember is that I was living in the picture Scream because that is how I felt. I was 41 years old, recently married, living in anew place, working a new job and very far away from friends and family. What was I going to do with my career, my life. All that will have to stop. I was just planning the next 10 years of my life as I was determined to ...

A while ago I wrote this short story. Meant to publish it but never got around to it. Here it is for your enjoyment. Fireworks and gossip Maurette Antersijn word count: 2621 To: Mauricio Smith From: Willy Jones Subject: Let's watch I'm glad you finished your to-do list last weekend. Always nice when you can tick things off. My weekend was uneventful. I stayed in and worked around the house. The basement has been needing a paint for years. So I cleared it out on Saturday. Sunday was spent on the couch doing the research and looking at the neighbours. They just moved in across the street. I think they are bird watchers or maybe they like looking at stars because the first things they moved in are a couple of stethoscopes. I have to start closing my curtains because it feels like Big Brother is watching. Be careful ... To: Willy Jones From: Mauricio Smith Subject: Experiments ready Looks like they are on to you. Keep using this email addre...