Signs of Doom
The rollercoaster of a mothers heart has me spinning in circles. I can't watch movies with children anymore, especially those where the child is hurting in any form. I cannot watch sad movies, movies where people are dying, I cannot watch children in general without my heart feeling like it will burst. What a thing! What bothers me the most and also drives me to better myself is the feeling that I leave this world when my daughter is not yet ready for me to leave. Now I realize why people get children young. When you are young, you don't think about your own mortality. Life is an adventure and you roll with it. But at my age, I am grateful for every single day. I see danger in every step. I see missteps, falls, cuts, bruises, soreness, cold, runny nose, fever and sneezes as signs of doom. Nieces ad nephews got colds, quarantine! Chickenpox, quarantine! I just realized .... I am turning into Sheldon from The Big Bang Theory. But seriously, he does have a point, doesn't h...